Well I guess in life I've learned a hard valuable lesson , Well I learned many of those , but one in particular would be be careful what you say because your tounge is powerful and can be used as a weapon even unintentionally and if your not careful with choosing your words wisely then you may find your self eating the very words you spit out . So as made as I am that I had sex with three people just within a 12 hour period from the time frame 5:30 pm to 4:30 am in the morning today and only have $105 .00 on my cash app. And the other part that is pathetic is I avoid to host incalls because the gang stalkers tipped off the office where I lived at and worked together for quite some time to once again make things much harder for me . So the last couple days I've been broke going without and tried to rise above it by not getting discouraged or depressed or feeling sorry for myself because that just makes the thoughts of suicide weight heavy on me plus I know I'm to scary to commit suicide because I fear death and sometimes wander if that's why I cling to the worldly things and people here that really ain't shit no better then me as far as a fucking soul that's prices if that's indeed true . My faith is lacking again more often then I find the strength to pray to Jesus . I'm not at the place in my life where I'm self for sure certain that Jesus is the Messiah and my savior.but Iv had enough life experiences to believe that Jesus is the Messiah and my Savior but at least for today and right now but I guess I have enough head knowledge to keep it together in the fucked up reality I seem to live in that I made my self unintentionally but also on purpose . Anyway I can't believe that I really thought that my new pictures and content was much more improvment then my old work enough to get me more customers and money in my pocket . But that clearly was not that case because everyone knows that I spoke it into existence that my sex is whack and everyone knows that I been using camera filters to cheat on my gallery pics and edit my videos of me ridding penis so raggedy sloppy not anywhere to good and nasty please the only thing nasty about my sex is how simular I look to Dog shit 💩 when I'm completely naked and how I can't move much during sexual incounters because my fat girl panting disqusting cow like heifer sounds coming out of me always get dicks to swivel up when there hard once they here the unattractive, disturbing , concerning wale noises coming from me . Two days ago I almost died of a while not being able to keep up with the man behind me hitting me from the back when it comes to motion and rhythm by the way he didn't come he wasn't upset he only was fucking me from behind because he thought he couldn't go through with it seeing and hearing me fake my orgasms and he thinks I sound like a broken record while I moan besides sounding like a beach wale that's lost at shore .and he thinks I look silly enough to make him want to have the right to have my ass killed because after seeing me in that way he thinks that there's no hope for me and wanders if I know I have the option to kill myself but wanders why after all I wasted in life and as much as I let myself go and as much as I ruined as far as my identity and image the world. See he probably thinks I'm retarded and that's why I look sloppy during sex . He probably wanders if I did where under were there shit stains in them and he probably wanders what the hell went on in my life for me to be ok with other people and strangers seeing my fat nasty naked body during sex that ain't good and he most likely thinks am I aware how bad I look naked and do I have any shame or ever had the thought just once to kill myself. And he's probably right now got me blocked because the other day where I almost died because he was hitting this shit from the back and I was struggling to keep up . But did y'all know that when I sucked Nicholas miesner lovely dick he fell asleep and also fell asleep when I was on top ridding him . I'm about to lay down I'm tied been up for a couple days with very little sleep.by Chance if there anyone out there who want some shitty sexual incounter services from a pathetic run down and ran through fat nasty half breed retarded racist raggedy mouth and throat only fuck doll hmu 40 bucks for 20 minutes quick visits . Im confessing that it's to late to reserve my life and it's to late to learn how to be good at sex so I can get fucked every night or raped every night by Nicholas Miesner who that's the only one I truly want to rape and beat me now that I lost him and don't have him anymore and if I ever lose weight I hope I'll be attractive enough to have the privilege to be brutally gang raped and killed by a bunch of black crackhead niggers because I was sold for crack and I hope they brutally violently gang rape me and kill my behind a dumpster on prospect ave kcmo maybe a churches chicken one. And I hope they serve me well by making shore I go meet my maker because I'm to scary to commit suicide witch is so fucking hot 🔥 but for now I'll just go lay down unless some one is Drunk enough to be horny enough to wast 40 dollars on me . I'm not made at y'all for harassing me into seeing how worthless and pathetic I am and how useless I am in this world because I did that to myself and I understand maybe how uncomfortable it can be for most of you to have to share this world with me but after I post this and get the truth and my confession out there that I'm a piece of shit and and no better or valuable then garbage . And that indeserve to be beating with a bat until I'm dead because raping me and killing me would only give the wrong message to society because for one you can't rape the willing because I already licked butthole and two nobody would actually get off raping me because who ever saw the sight of that would go shot them selfs later from being traumatized that I'm getting ass raped butt naked by four homeless crackheads who are ratched trifling dirty nigros who secretly moslest little girls anyways I just want to let you all know when I'm naked standing up my ass looks like cottage cheese or a old beat up car with dents in it .and by Chance if anyone out there can possibly help me get back on track because I feel lately like I'm skipping back into my dark place and can convince me more to walk in faith then yes soon Ill want to get baptized but I'm so fucking cow heifer fat that we gonna have to make a speacil trip to SeaWorld to wash away my sinds .